Don’t think I have the intention of caressing your cheek and saying I was wrong. I will not weep and wonder what might have been. I’m sure you understand. Still, I’m proud of you in a way. You have shown great conviction. Strength. Courage. All noble qualities.. I should have killed you long ago. -Haytham Kenway
I hate it when people are like “wow I’m so awkward!” or they think acting awkward is cute and quirky. It’s not cute and fun when you actually are awkward and can’t talk to anyone or make any friends. I’m socially awkward and have social anxiety, it’s horrible because I want to make friends but I can’t so I’m always alone and it fucking sucks. Most people are like “wow it can’t be that hard to talk to people!” Well it is.
Not to mention, it’s fucking terrifying! That awkwardness is borne out of legitimate fear of people. Fear of what they’ll say, of what they’ll think of you. And it’s stupid and pointless and you know it’s stupid and pointless but you can’t stop it anyway. And then when you do fuck up, even if you don’t but you think you do, you go after yourself mentally as if you were the reincarnation of Hitler.
So yeah. Social awkwardness or social anxiety isn’t cute. It isn’t ‘quirky’ or something that makes you a sparkly special snowflake. It’s terrible and it sucks and it hurts.